Into the wild is an incredible movie to me. A movie based book by Jon Krakauer which telling about Christoper Johnson McCandles who try his idealism by lived in the wilderness until he was died in his ’magic-bus’ in Alaska. Honestly, this movie always being inspiration by all kind adventures, including me, an amateur adventure. Well, standing in the middle of wilderness, observe highest and arrogant mountains, gloomy and distinct river, dancing of wild fog, formation of sturdy pines like marching soldier who goes into field of their battle are interesting issues to be discuss or to do.
Here, Christ who love to call himself Alexander Supertramp try to fight and walk out from the-people-of-the-world usual idiom, walk out from idiom that money, social community, power, office job or anything which can category into normal, make sense and the-right-rail are things that human being must do. Christ try to live in his lonely in the wilderness and off course money become not the essential things anymore, but survival is everything. The interesting thing to me is the power of his idealism, what on earth in his head until Christ really do something that sounds not-normal, not-making-sense and not-in-the-right-rail? Was he not-normal, not-making-sense and not-in-the-right-rail man? Christ wasn’t man from minimum education category; in fact his family was wealthy family. Wasn’t he tried to think to live like his parent, who can make some wealthy family? Wasn’t he tried to work in some big company so he can get big money to funding his save and comfort journey?
In this level, I think I can understand him. We all grow into mature level, there is no time to playing freely, raise your hand and get naked and running in the middle of forest or acts like not give a shit to sadness of real world. Since we was children, we always being taught to live in-the-right-rail, get some degrees, works in big company and raise your own family until death monopolize our live. Then, we grow up become teenager and realizes that the life cycle is a complex thing. And what a bunch of crap! Time always reminds us that if you like it or not, you have to do all kind of that life cycle. Then we all are trapped in the-people-of-the-world usual idiom and monotonous life will become our best friend for all the time. Christ doesn’t like it, for him, freedom is absolute and essential. Money, social community and the other things can’t nail him, a bit different than us who realize or not, making these things becomes our remedy which makes us being addicted. Well, at least we are the normal person by the-people-of-the-world usual idiom, aren’t we?
But, half or more of Christ’s idealism grew because of his family factor which makes him become more apathetic and doesn’t believe in family-love. He hates capitalism life and not to try living like the other common people, which in fact, Christ only hates his parent and covering it by hates all things which sounds like force him to do like the other peoples do. I don’t blame or support him in these things. Every people grows become unique human with different character, that things happen because every human have different experiences. From family until big environment really inspiring how people think until people became mature in their thinking. Christ doesn’t like his parent and try to fight them by proving to himself for living based on his idealism. Christ doesn’t believe in family-love and I think that’s really natural for him to think like that, because he can’t find it in his own family. And there’s no wrong thing until this level.
But, the bothering things to me are when he tries to prove all things by gone and wasn’t making a call or similar things to his family. Alright! I mean, Christ can go anytime and anywhere and that’s no bothering me at all, because I understand that travelling is always fun. But with no telling anyone about your condition and where you headed are selfish act to me. Every people will die and sometime we never care of which way we going to die. But, how the feeling of our closest people? Have we ever tried to think, how big their broken heart when we die? Even, how introvert you are, I always believes that there are people will miss you so much when you get die. Wasn’t Christ ever think, how Christ’s parent so worry about him? Worry can make human get easily stress and it’s really natural. Haven’t we tried to think that how worry our family when we never tell them about our condition or our live? That’s selfish act to me.
Running up the rocky mountain, crossing the hard river or sitting next to deep canyon and watch sunrise are really exciting activities and can be hard to forget the euphoria. But this all things have big risk and damn me, a lot of people will critic me with business and investment quote, ‘no pain no gain!’ honestly, I won’t lie on myself, wilderness activities is the best anesthesia to me, that thing like life-charger when we running our monotonous life. But, I prefer do that in safe and comfort way, just to decrease the death risk without losing the euphoria of fun. I just can’t think what my family’s felling when they see me in death before them, in fact sometime my big curious can defeat my logical thinking to make some safe and comfort wilderness activities or doing some fool-brave thing and challenge the death just to satisfied my curious. Wilderness activity is great anesthesia indeed.
Finally Christ die in his ‘magic-bus’ in August 18th 1992 because of starving and one of the reason was consuming poison plant. In that movie, finally Christ realizes that family-love is real thing. I just think that in Christ’s last time, he was really afraid, lonely and miss about love of his family. When we get into trouble or even death and live situation, we really need our inner circle society to make us stronger, but in some bad time, we can’t get that and Christ put himself into that situation. Christ was a winner for himself, he was proving that his idealism can work on himself, but that slowly change when he miss his family and need them a lot when Christ have hard time situation. Every human need being acknowledged and the love are the resources.
And that story reminds me of my question which until now I can’t get the answer, some question which makes me become fool man among the people. Simple question but really hard to me to understand “what the meaning of our life?” its looks like melancholic and pessimistic question, but honestly I tried so hard to find the answer. I know that God just give me one life. Lives that every people will talk “don’t waste it!” I’m sure that we are hearing this sentence a lot and maybe we will say this sentence thousand times when we have chance to say that. Was, all of my closest friends always say that “hey, pass your degree quickly! Stop playing around! Don’t waste your life!” every time my friends have chance. Thanks a lot bastard! With your pray, I’m a degree man now! Even now when I got some job in some company, my closest inner circle society and I love them so much always said “hey, don’t waste your expenses for unnecessary things! Forget your trip! Don’t buy tools that you will use it barely! Decrease your hobbies activities and try to focus on your life! Don’t waste your life!” “Well, thanks a lot bastard! Are you got some happiness with your life, now?”
Sentence ‘don’t waste your life’ somehow become have meaning that every life which don’t follow the-people-of-the-world common idiom are wasting life. When we try to walk out from social society and doing some not-normal activities, so your life becomes wasting life. When you quit from your comfort job which can predicted by your friend that the job will bring you good future which actually you don’t like it so much and do something that you like, you will wasting your life. All these things makes ‘don’t waste your life’ become barometer for all kind you do in your life. But, times slowly pass and I’m growing with my mature thinking, that sentence have meaning changing. Will me sacrificing tens of my years to do things that actually I don’t like it? Will me have to yelling out my regrets in my heart because I wasn’t do that or this which actually I like it when I get dying? Well, that thing is wasting life for me. Christ wasn’t wasting his life for me. Now, a lot of people don’t agree with Christ’s life style, but for me, Christ was doing his life because he like it even he do it with brave and selfish way. Well, Christ still man that I honor a lot. For few people, he was dying in vain, but for me, his death inspiring us how to see our life which we only have one chance. I’ll see you Christ…but not soon
Once again, every human need being acknowledged and the love are the resources.
You can call for me some psychiatric, never mind…but, I need beers more a lot =)
Back home sweet home,
August 17th 2011
Deorc Regnboga
